Man, I had a huge wake up call this morning,
Here I am sitting, worrying about my minute inefficientcies and how my life seems to be
in shambles, and I can never seem to get anything right, and my self control is weak.
and all of the sudden, I get a Facebook message from my bud Kon.
He told me he has to go to the army after all...
How freaking hard would that be?! to leave everything you know and love,
just to go back to your home country, which you dont even live in, and join THEIR army
risking your life for them, just so when you visit your parents they dont take you to jail?

REDICULOUS!
Kon has some of the best qualities a human can possibly have!
you cannot help but smile when you see him (No homo) but its true
he has such a good head on his shoulders, and doesnt seem to let much get to him.

I was designated the keeper of his laptop, the gatekeeper if you will, I now hold
his last remnances of his prescense of being enrolled at Ringling (Other than his work)
I am the one who books the final book end on his time here, this chapter atleast.
I cannot almost help think its fate that put it here... why me? it makes since, sure, but why not just turn it in before he left? why not Garey? *Sigh* I am trying to see the good in this, I would like to think Kon planned it all out, he knew I needed this, he saw I needed this, I miss that kid.

While Kon is risking his life, his laptop serves as my only life line for now. I feel it sitting at my feet while im typing, he left his ringling bag under my bed... here it sits, beckoning, calling, urging me, to be all I can be, and pushing me to become who I am supposed to be.

How is it that an inanimate object can move me in such ways? I can feel an aura in the room, almost if he were here, but even moreso, His intuition, or persay his faith in me to carry on. Almost the same feeling as a desceased loved one leaving behind something, but bigger, because 1. he is still alive,
2. he knew what he was doing when he gave it,
3. It seems so right.

Kon, whether you knew what you were doing when you left, this laptop has had a bigger impact on me than I even thought it would. I miss you man, I pray you continue to keep to yourself, and that you stay safe, as you told me you are leaving next month for the army.

You'd better believe I will be the FIRST one waiting at the gate for you to return...

Come back to florida!!

Jerry Springer wants you back
The Ocean wants you back
NASA wants you back
And the Doublemint twins want you back
And StarBucks wants you back
And Gangster hats wants you back