Alright-- sooo its been forever since I said hello to you guys... but this summer was pretty hectic... Pre College was a blast! Soo many awesome opportunities to reach kids lives and such... Although I learned a lot about my self via the situation... apparently I like to hear myself talk way to much, which I do realise is not Ideal in certain circumstances, but this year's mission is to find a gentle blend of leadership and passive outlooks on things, I keep jumping ahead of myself between to realities, that of which I am a student, and that of which that his peers are graduating and starting their real jobs, and I feel that I too am able to get out of school and start LIVING.... alas there is still more work to be done here.

Moving here was a big step towards Alex 2.0 and so far I am pleased with the results... I do find hiccups in my demeanor though... I find myself going through swings of outlooks, attitude, and apathy. Yet also find WAVES of courage, cunning, perseverence, and entitlement.

Resentment is not an option- adaptation is the answer, realising faults is probably the most fun thing out of this whole process we call life; my outlook is, if you are comfortable your doing it wrong :-P honestly though, if you just sit in a rut, and opt not to move, where is there progress to be had, there is none.

it took an old guy that works in a type/printing museum to knock this one into my head: success is putting your pants on one leg at a time, and making that first step... for all of this time, I tired to pull off 150% on everything, ultimately stressing my body out to its breaking point and exhaustion... when in actuallity if I just made each step gradually happen, the rest will fall suit...

Ill get deeper into this summer tomorrow night, its back to regular posting hours... I miss ya'll and love you, its about time I vented... such releif flows from writing your thoughts... even if nobody does read them. :)

-A.